WAYNE’S WORDS
Volume 4 Number 04
Life Ain’t TV
Hello?
Is there anybody left out there?
I am still right here where I have always been, just…blog-less. I don’t know what is wrong. I don’t know what to write. I am, however, still here.
Even as I type – my mind is blank. I really don’t think it is a big deal, though. I mean, I think the only people who ever read this are a few of my co-workers. It may, as far as I know, be filler for our website to boost its page count or something.
I think my life has begun to atrophy. I know that there are many parts of me that have. I am fighting the recurring and cascading effects of a back injury from last year. I moved a stupid piano and knocked out a couple of vertebrae. I was able to lift it without problems. How? I don’t know. I guess I am stronger than I look. It was the twisting of it through a doorway that did the damage. You would think it would be hard to manage a back injury in someone spineless, but it still happens. LOL.
I know a good portion of my heart is shriveling up and wasting away. I just don’t have anyone to share it with. It has really good stuff in it, but I guess if you don’t use it you lose it.
I know that many of us are not where we thought we would be at this stage in our lives. I know that when I was young I thought that I would meet a wonderful girl who would love and cherish me as I would her. I thought we would have two incredible children (one boy – one girl) that would rejoice in the fact that we were a happy family. I figured that both my wife and I would have worked for the same companies (respectively) for the past 20 years and have incredible pensions awaiting our retirement. I even thought we would have the children’s college saved for and ready for their enrollment only to find out that they both received full scholarships. Big house, nice cars, fun vacations – no debt. All of this is what I envisioned.
None of this has come to fruition. I guess those lofty dreams are what I get from growing up watching television. The Brady Bunch, Happy Days, The Waltons, Leave It To Beaver, Ozzie and Harriet, Father Knows Best, Family Ties, The Cosby Show. Although each show had its own brand of weirdness, as I looked through my television window into their lives, I saw long lasting love, respect, hard work, etc. I saw family.
Yes, there were problems and issues that arose in all of these shows, but the beauty of television was that all of the characters learned from their mistakes and corrected them. There was growth. I liked what I saw and wanted it.
Maybe I should have just become and actor.
Until Next Time,
Don't forget that we based what we wanted out of life on what we saw at home. I read your blog every time you post....and I have introduced others to it (my algebra professor *loves* it!). You're not the only one that feels like your life isn't what you imagined, but that's when you need to take it back and make it what you want. That's what I have done and am so much happier for it. Don't ever forget that I love you and my daughter still refers to you as her hero! Hang in there...make your life your own and you will find love and happiness!
ReplyDeleteI am sorry about your back. I never meant for that to happen. My life is not as I envisioned either Wayne. We all have our black days, months, years....Nothing in my life has happened the way I wanted it to. I use to think that career success was so important and now that i have it, it means nothing and I am more unhappy and unsatisfied than I have ever been in my life. You have a lot. Remember that. A beautiful child that has been blessed with the most amazing dad in the world and will always realize that whether he does now or not.
ReplyDeleteWayne, people live in the fantasy world of television or romance novels. Life happens. Circumstances change... we work with what we are given and don't trash those that cherish us and we cherish. “Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving” Albert Einstein
ReplyDeleteA man deemed as wise and righteous once stated:
ReplyDelete“Man, born of woman, is short-lived and glutted with agitation. Like a blossom he has come forth and is cut off, And he runs away like the shadow and does not keep existing." This man, Job, lost everything: his 10 children, his riches, his wealth, and even finally his health. He certainly voiced what so many people experience in life.
It's so true that life ends up different from the dreams we have at 18 and 20... someone who would might have been a doctor or engineer has their college education stream rolled by unseen circumstances; the brilliant athlete is maimed in a tragic accident and lives his life in a wheelchair; or the tenderhearted get trodden down by people who recognize their vulnerability.
That's not to say there isn't hope.
The wisest of all men offered the way to hope when he said:
"Come to me, all YOU who are toiling and loaded down, and I will refresh YOU. Take my yoke upon YOU and learn from me, for I am mild-tempered and lowly in heart, and YOU will find refreshment for YOUR souls. For my yoke is kindly and my load is light.”
Or the most beautiful promise of all:
"Look! The tent of God is with mankind, and he will reside with them, and they will be his peoples. And God himself will be with them. And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away.” And the One seated on the throne said: “Look! I am making all things new.” Also, he says: “Write, because these words are faithful and true."
What if, just what if, we're not meant to struggle through misery and suffering, feeling we should follow the mentality “let us eat and drink, for tomorrow we are to die"? What if there is a real course to happiness now, with the end results that we get to hit the "reset" button and actually enjoy life in peace and happiness, with true loved ones and working to better ourselves and humanity as a whole?
Have you ever felt that there must be an answer, Wayne? It's there. Honest. Keep looking for it, and God willing, he'll help you find it.
"Keep on asking, and it will be given YOU; keep on seeking, and YOU will find; keep on knocking, and it will be opened to YOU. For everyone asking receives, and everyone seeking finds, and to everyone knocking it will be opened."
Okay Wayne this is from MARCH!!!! We need more funnies!!
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