WAYNE’S WORDS
Volume 4 Number 04
Life Ain’t TV
Hello?
Is there anybody left out there?
I am still right here where I have always been, just…blog-less. I don’t know what is wrong. I don’t know what to write. I am, however, still here.
Even as I type – my mind is blank. I really don’t think it is a big deal, though. I mean, I think the only people who ever read this are a few of my co-workers. It may, as far as I know, be filler for our website to boost its page count or something.
I think my life has begun to atrophy. I know that there are many parts of me that have. I am fighting the recurring and cascading effects of a back injury from last year. I moved a stupid piano and knocked out a couple of vertebrae. I was able to lift it without problems. How? I don’t know. I guess I am stronger than I look. It was the twisting of it through a doorway that did the damage. You would think it would be hard to manage a back injury in someone spineless, but it still happens. LOL.
I know a good portion of my heart is shriveling up and wasting away. I just don’t have anyone to share it with. It has really good stuff in it, but I guess if you don’t use it you lose it.
I know that many of us are not where we thought we would be at this stage in our lives. I know that when I was young I thought that I would meet a wonderful girl who would love and cherish me as I would her. I thought we would have two incredible children (one boy – one girl) that would rejoice in the fact that we were a happy family. I figured that both my wife and I would have worked for the same companies (respectively) for the past 20 years and have incredible pensions awaiting our retirement. I even thought we would have the children’s college saved for and ready for their enrollment only to find out that they both received full scholarships. Big house, nice cars, fun vacations – no debt. All of this is what I envisioned.
None of this has come to fruition. I guess those lofty dreams are what I get from growing up watching television. The Brady Bunch, Happy Days, The Waltons, Leave It To Beaver, Ozzie and Harriet, Father Knows Best, Family Ties, The Cosby Show. Although each show had its own brand of weirdness, as I looked through my television window into their lives, I saw long lasting love, respect, hard work, etc. I saw family.
Yes, there were problems and issues that arose in all of these shows, but the beauty of television was that all of the characters learned from their mistakes and corrected them. There was growth. I liked what I saw and wanted it.
Maybe I should have just become and actor.
Until Next Time,
