Live & Learn

WAYNE’S WORDS
Volume 4 Number 09
Live & Learn

Well, Mr. Jingles returned my jump drive, but evidently, I forgot how to use it. Here it is nearly the end of August and all I have on record is one blog for this month. It has not really been a good blog year for me. I think I have put a few good editions in the can, but as far as staying on top of things and doing it more often – not really happening.

The other day a dear friend of mine told me that I should write something happier. I actually do not know what could be a happier topic than getting back my jump drive, but the point was well taken. Conceding that I should write a happier blog leads many (myself included) to the question – “is Wayne happy?”

Actually, I am happier than I have been in a decade.

Although my blog is often riddled with narratives of heartbreak, loss, trials and tribulations, it by no means truly indicates the current state of my happiness. To me, Wayne’s Words has transmogrified from some silly little observations about random stupid crap in life into more serious observations about random stupid crap in life.

It seems like this blog was once a place to inject some levity and humor, but it has since become more of a home for reflection and learning – for me anyway. And the only way it works for me is to type it on this screen – it is therapeutic. If I did not use this outlet in the way I do I would not be learning life lessons very well. I would still be walking into walls. When you read this blog, whether you like it or not, you are witness to my growth process - but of course you don’t HAVE to read it.

I think many of you do read this blog, because you can relate to any given installment. You may not identify with everything, hell you might not even agree with it, but if you read it and can glean something useful from it – then cool. Even if what you gather is just a snicker or a “I never thought of it that way.” I do think that blogs (that aren’t informational) are like songs. They really mean something to the songwriter and if you end up liking them then that is neato too.

I am not some guru sitting atop a mountain passing down divine lessons. And I, most definitely, do NOT see myself as such. Just as I have said about a million times, I am a regular guy, just tryin’ to get by. Sometimes, while I am trying to get by, I run headlong into a huge wall of crap. We all do. Often I hit that wall due to blindness or stupidity or naiveté or lust or greed or gluttony or… the reasons could go on. I just choose to write about the wall here to help me tear it down and learn from the bricks of crap around my proverbial feet. My hope is that you would read it and be more able to deal with your own crap walls. However, when it comes to advise or lessons (solicited or not) we often refuse to hear them or think that they apply to us. Oh, well. At least I am learning.

One thing is for sure – this blog is better for me than turning to the bottle, or drugs or other stupid behavior that I am sure I could do to numb myself or make things seem to go away. Some cool things about doing this blog compared to those other things are:

• It’s free,
• I’m not impaired,
• A bit less vomit,
• No mornings waking up and saying “who are you?”
• No police problems (yet, anyway),
• The day after I don’t feel like hammered dog crap,
• You can finish out the list from here.

So, again I say, generally I am happier than I have been in a decade and… I feel a little wiser too, since I have been lucky enough to learn from my writings in this therapeutic space, which I call a blog.

Until Next Time,
Wayne